Big Sean Says He Often Had a Gun In His Hand With Thoughts About Ending it

Big Sean has been very open with his mental health struggles.

He painted the starkest picture of his pain during a Facebook Watch interview with Michael Eric Dyson.

“I for sure contemplated suicide a lot of times, having guns in my hand, feeling it for real … planning it out to the point where I said, ‘Hey, if I do kill myself, at least my family will get this amount of money. I did this already,'” he told host Dr. Michael Eric Dyson. “Because I was just stressed out and not happy. I realized that OK, I need to stop everything I’m doing and figure this out or I’m going to self-destruct.

“I took the time off, canceled everything I was doing, sought therapy, connected with God more, spiritually grounded myself, and put myself first as a priority for the first time ever.”

Sean took 2018 and some of 2019 off because of his depression.  He explained why while promoting Detroit 2 last year.

"I was going through crazy depression, crazy like anxiety. I felt like broken inside. I for sure was thinking about [quitting rap music]. You know, because I was so frustrated sometimes .... I realized that rapping wasn't necessarily my passion all the way. My passion is to inspire."